I permanently deleted my content by accident.

I had a lot of things planned that day. Ruining the day was not part of the plan.

On the menu was to tape a new video, go to the salon to get my nails done, and reply to everyone who started the Social Anxiety challenge. Fun things you know. Instead, I started my day off by permanently deleting 46% of my Honestrox folder on my computer. The horror.

It pretty much felt like I lost my computer because that folder was the only worthy piece in it. Nothing else mattered but the work I did for my business. All my video scripts were gone, my b-roll footage, and the ideas that I started working on.

I cried, I’m not going to lie. Then I immediately, in panic mode, tried to fix it by downloading recovery software. I wish I could tell you it helped and that there’s a happy ending, but alas, it was not to be. 64% of the folder was erased. I deleted my content.

It’s been a week now and if I still think about it, I have anxiety over it. Almost like I’m reliving it and it’s happening all over again. I imagine this to be the feeling when something tragic happens, and we can’t move past the fact that we can’t go back in time to undo it.

It’s so final. Permanent.

Part of me was furious at what led to this mistake. And I couldn’t stop replaying it in my head. Like, why did I concern myself with such a trivial task (which led to the deletion) first thing in the morning? If I had tackled it later in the day, this wouldn’t have happened!

But I knew that was the wrong way to look at it. So I did my best to reframe the whole situation and change my mindset around it.

So, after a lot of introspection and reflection, these are the things that helped me moved forward. I hope that they help you as well if you go through something similar, where you have no control over a situation and you can’t fix it because there’s no going back in time.

4 things I told myself after I deleted my content:

1. I asked myself “How can I turn this day around?”

I cannot be mad at the series of events that led to it. It doesn’t matter how I got to this point. Being angry at the reason it happened is honestly misplaced anger. I packed my emotional bags up and told myself to do what I had initially planned to do so that the day would be somewhat successful. Since there was nothing I could do to bring back those files (that I didn’t try), instead of moping around (even though I was mopey all day), I forced myself to do something joyful.

2. I prevented something even worse from happening.

Who knows, maybe if this happened 5 months from now, my loss would have been 10x bigger. It’s better it happened now so that I can put safeguards in place (constantly sync my documents to the cloud), in order to prevent an even BIGGER loss that could have happened a year from now. A loss so big that would have put me into a mental asylum.

3. It makes for a story.

I’m writing a newsletter about it, aren’t I? At some point in time, I’ll tell someone about this, or I’ll commiserate with someone going through something similar. And hopefully, above all else, this can be a helpful reminder that it happens to everyone. I’d like these mindset shifts to potentially help others.

4. If it was important, I’ll remember it.

I have NO IDEA what I lost. Isn’t that weird? I know of two scripts that I wrote at length that I’m mourning over, but other than that, I can’t really pinpoint what else I lost. So, while it’s a lot, the fact that I can’t remember makes me feel better. As if I have a clean slate to start with again. I find that I overwhelm myself by writing down all these ideas, scripting them out, and then feeling guilty that I’m not doing anything with them.

These 4 things are not just tied to lost work. They’re valid in other areas of life as well.

Next time you feel like you flopped a performance, or you broke an expensive vase, or you made an egregious spelling mistake at work, take some time to be mopey and pissed and angry at the world, but then reframe your mindset.

And you do that by starting first with this question: “How can I turn this day around?”

Then go turn it around.

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About Me

I help other introverts become socially confident. As a former
socially anxious person, I know how hard it is to be yourself
in social situations without letting anxiety get the best of you.
I created Honestrox to provide you with the best content
to help you show up as yourself confidently.

For more on my story, go here.