It was during the lockdown, back in March 2020, that I started feeling anxiety around texting. I was sitting around the house all day with nothing to say but wanting desperately to connect with people. I found it excruciating typing up messages because I didn’t know how I’d come off. We’re living in a sensitive time, after all, and you never know what’s going to trigger people.
I wasn’t exactly having the worst time. I was pregnant, on maternity leave, enjoying nice quality time with my son, so I didn’t want to appear insensitive to others that might be going through a difficult time.
So I questioned every text I sent.
And because I’m being super aware of everything these days, I wanted to do a video about texting anxiety and how awesome it would be to have a texting council out there to help me out whenever I don’t know how to reply to someone!
These days, texting anxiety still pops up. I’m part of a group chat, and I can’t tell you how many times I try to chime in, respond to someone, or share some pictures/updates, with no one ever replying. I see them replying to each other, ignoring my texts plenty of times. As if I’m directly ghosted.
It sucks. And I complain to my husband about it all the time. But then, you know what I do? I keep texting. I refuse to be pushed to the side because there are days when they directly talk to me.
So I know not to take it personally when they don’t.
It’s ok. I’m ok sitting with my texting anxiety. And working through it.